"Now (at sixty) I should finally 'burn my ships' and try to realize the
'totally foolish' last work I want to perform (if I have still some years to
live): prepare the cosmo-bio-anthropology and make the ideal of self
governing socialism a real alternative. This is the answer I give at
present to the anxieties of my adolescence (all of which I still consider as
completely valid questions) In my end is my beginning. The decision I come
to is ambiguous: is the withdrawal from past activities only the expression
of old age, or is it really the 'going back home' that I hope it will be?
I cannot know. Even less can I know if this biography, this unskillful novel
composed by a non novelist about his past is correct or incorrect. Is this
attempt to make the other feel the rhythm of an individual life successfull
or not? I shall never know. At the present moment I could not even describe
the method (if any) used by the two collaborators to construct it. Yet now
it exists (a lie, a truth or both). I know what I intended it to be: one
long drawn out story to express for once, to those willing to listen,
not a partial facet but the whole dynamics of this long process, during
which one person tries to see -and show others- the universe we share,
this 'living crystal'."
Ingrid Van Dooren en Leo Apostel The Philosophy of Leo Apostel:
A life history Communication and Cognition, 1989
|